原来爱情这么伤

我睁开眼睛却感觉不到天亮，东西吃一半莫名其妙哭一场。我忍住不想时间变得更漫长，也与你有关否则又开始胡思乱想。我日夜无光忙得不知所以然，找朋友交谈其实全帮不上忙。以为会习惯有你在才是习惯，你曾住在我心上现在空了一个地方。原来爱情这么伤比想像中还难，泪水总是不听话幸福躲起来不声不响。太多道理太牵强道理全是一样，说的时候很简单爱上后却正巧打乱。

MI

i heard discouraging words but i choose to believe. you gave me the promise and i trust.. maybe im being optimistic. maybe im being idealistic. maybe im afraid of failure. or maybe i dont know how i should react in this realistic world..

11th :)

one more month :)
i choose to believe, but will i be disappointed once again?

神木与瞳

thursday was a happy happy day! heh. finally managed to catch vampires suck (first day screening) and i think the actors starring are somehow quite similar to the real stars in twillight lol. esp that black hair guy still looks like wangrenfu!
then went school for the campus concert, it was totally awesome! i love her attitude and his voice. both of their vocals are soo power, and their live was soo good that it sounds like lip-sync hah. and that dj ivy's laughter is damn funny lol, those who went should know what i mean.. okay im simply in love with them now, they rock ttm! :D
then went back outlet with dear to sing! super long since i last stay back in outlet to sing. dno why but recently i keep having a very strong urge to sing lol. too long never sing already, i think my voice sounds quite cui now lor hahaha. singing kakis, where are you?? :D

rahhh

had been working almost every day for the past month, working very hard to earn more money but in the end im still broke. promised dear not to spend unnecessarily till next year, shall try hard to achieve that! anyway, attended hygiene course last monday so now it seems that i have to work for 150hours before i can leave. but i didnt sign the bond lei! hehe. and why ms so pathetic have to attend the course alone! other outlets have at least two or three people from the same outlet attending it tgt lei. luckily the people i met there are mostly nice and friendly :) lyekiat got longfei, super lucky right! class is always entertaining with him around heh.
and recently adjustments have been made to the two shifts, dear is working night shift now. superr siann.. nobody pei me go work, nobody eat lunch with me, nobody listen to me complain, nobody piggyback me to carpark when my feet hurt, nobody send me home.. :( hopefully things will get better and he will be back working morning shift..
school has started and im pissed that i still cant get my modules. why are people so kiasu, hold on to every module possible and deprive others of any chance to get them. grr.. hope lessons are manageable and pray hard i can achieve my target gpa this sem!
oh yah! on a happier note, 神木与瞳 is having campus concert in my school tmr! thanks so much amelia for giving me tickets hehe, will be watching with dear tmr. shall catch vampires suck tmr too, looks pretty funny heh. and boy arh, where are all the long overdue photos!!

disappointment

i finally see how much i mean to you.. you arent any different, are you? im tired of repeating myself.. some words should be left unsaid.. 我会学着独立，不再那么依赖你。。。