IVY

原来爱情这么伤

2010-12-09T05:54:00.003+08:00

我睁开眼睛却感觉不到天亮，东西吃一半莫名其妙哭一场。我忍住不想时间变得更漫长，也与你有关否则又开始胡思乱想。我日夜无光忙得不知所以然，找朋友交谈其实全帮不上忙。以为会习惯有你在才是习惯，你曾住在我心上现在空了一个地方。原来爱情这么伤比想像中还难，泪水总是不听话幸福躲起来不声不响。太多道理太牵强道理全是一样，说的时候很简单爱上后却正巧打乱。

MI

2010-09-08T00:49:00.002+08:00

i heard discouraging words but i choose to believe. you gave me the promise and i trust.. maybe im being optimistic. maybe im being idealistic. maybe im afraid of failure. or maybe i dont know how i should react in this realistic world..

11th :)

2010-09-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

one more month :)
i choose to believe, but will i be disappointed once again?

神木与瞳

2010-09-04T23:46:00.001+08:00

thursday was a happy happy day! heh. finally managed to catch vampires suck (first day screening) and i think the actors starring are somehow quite similar to the real stars in twillight lol. esp that black hair guy still looks like wangrenfu!
then went school for the campus concert, it was totally awesome! i love her attitude and his voice. both of their vocals are soo power, and their live was soo good that it sounds like lip-sync hah. and that dj ivy's laughter is damn funny lol, those who went should know what i mean.. okay im simply in love with them now, they rock ttm! :D
then went back outlet with dear to sing! super long since i last stay back in outlet to sing. dno why but recently i keep having a very strong urge to sing lol. too long never sing already, i think my voice sounds quite cui now lor hahaha. singing kakis, where are you?? :D

rahhh

2010-09-02T03:28:00.001+08:00

had been working almost every day for the past month, working very hard to earn more money but in the end im still broke. promised dear not to spend unnecessarily till next year, shall try hard to achieve that! anyway, attended hygiene course last monday so now it seems that i have to work for 150hours before i can leave. but i didnt sign the bond lei! hehe. and why ms so pathetic have to attend the course alone! other outlets have at least two or three people from the same outlet attending it tgt lei. luckily the people i met there are mostly nice and friendly :) lyekiat got longfei, super lucky right! class is always entertaining with him around heh.
and recently adjustments have been made to the two shifts, dear is working night shift now. superr siann.. nobody pei me go work, nobody eat lunch with me, nobody listen to me complain, nobody piggyback me to carpark when my feet hurt, nobody send me home.. :( hopefully things will get better and he will be back working morning shift..
school has started and im pissed that i still cant get my modules. why are people so kiasu, hold on to every module possible and deprive others of any chance to get them. grr.. hope lessons are manageable and pray hard i can achieve my target gpa this sem!
oh yah! on a happier note, 神木与瞳 is having campus concert in my school tmr! thanks so much amelia for giving me tickets hehe, will be watching with dear tmr. shall catch vampires suck tmr too, looks pretty funny heh. and boy arh, where are all the long overdue photos!!

2010-08-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

disappointment

2010-08-11T00:07:00.002+08:00

i finally see how much i mean to you.. you arent any different, are you? im tired of repeating myself.. some words should be left unsaid.. 我会学着独立，不再那么依赖你。。。

10th :)

2010-08-06T23:57:00.001+08:00

wednesday. finally went to sit singapore flyer with love! hehe nice experience and pretty night scenery, took many many photos! reached too early so went for massage at kenko while waiting for the sky to turn dark. so comfortable and relaxing that both of us fell asleep lol. massage is love! shall go again some day heh. really enjoyed myself though we didnt get to go helix bridge or take neoprints lol. next time okay! and superrr touched that you actually remembered on the day itself. guess its cause you always fail to remember so i had such a big reaction then hehe. love you!
today. got my long-awaited pay! accompanied mummy for checkup in the afternoon then shopped around after that. bought accessories, cosmetics and jewellery hehe, pamper myself a little after taking pay. its only right to enjoy myself and make myself happy after hectic work schedules right? i think i deserve this lol. rewarding day! ^^
anyway, tmr is such a siann day. dear is working till closing today so will be working afternoon shift tmr, that means i have to go work alone since im working morning shift. soo lonely.. and that also means i have to wake up much earlier cos no one will be fetching me to work tmr! :(

hearts

2010-07-21T01:14:00.000+08:00

hearts all the lovely people around me :) it's only when shit happens to you then you realise how lucky you are to have wonderful friends always staying by your side. im thankful i have not one, but a few true friends who are always trying their very best to solve my problems. esp zihui laopo, thanks girl for everything you have done. love you people to bits! and im missing my boy already.. why a relationship only gets better after a quarrel? somehow after every conflict, people tend to be closer than before. but can i skip this unhappy stage and make things turn out the same way?

course reg

2010-07-14T15:27:00.000+08:00

course reg tmr! kinda dreading it.. it keeps reminding me that school is starting soooon. not exactly v soon but still, i dont really look forward to it cos im too used to my life without studies now lol. going out with lovely people, shopping, sleeping alot everyday, doing things that i didnt have time to do during school term, nua-ing at home when i dont feel like doing anything, working occasionally so i have money to spend, and more time to meet my boy :D how wonderful it is to be free of academic stress! hehe. im still left with one and a half month to enjoy myself before school starts, and i have soo many things i wanna do! watch the crazies and the blood pledge and despicable me and other nice shows when they are showing, sit singapore flyer and go helix bridge (rec by kailing and lyekiat hehe) and marina barrage, explore universal studios, rebond my hair again cos its not straight already and have to do it soon so it wont be too flat when school starts, meet up with laopos be it singing or buffet sessions cos all these will never be enough lol, and the list goes on..

still considering if i should go back to school tmr to do my course registration cos the server there is much much faster. but im lazy to spend four hours of travelling time to reach there and then back home lol..

yay dear's offday tmr!

and this is cute right? hehe loves :D

wondering

2010-07-05T01:12:00.001+08:00

if something can be forgotten so easily, perhaps it's too insignificant to be remembered..

contacts

2010-07-05T01:05:00.001+08:00

feeling more and more tired recently.. i miss the old ms days, alooooot.
anyway, tried out freshkon alluring eyes contacts for bigger eyes. wore for only a day and one of the lens broke.. =.= duuuuui sia, one pair twenty plus thirty dollars not cheap lei.. and normally one pair can wear for one month but i only wore for a day!?! :( luckily i found another way to get them at lower prices hehe, but i can only go and get it on tuesday. cant wait! wanna try out coloured contacts too, their new product (sparklers series) looks quite tempting and is much much cheaper! still thinking about it though..
no point remembering if you don't remember.. :(

meaningful

2010-07-01T00:10:00.000+08:00

udders

2010-06-29T01:35:00.003+08:00

finally back to blog! well, nothing much happened during these two weeks actually. met up with laopos to celebrate yokesan's birthday. then went cck with lyekiat liangming jiaming warren and dear to find phang and sing. songs at cck outlet are v updated! bonamana is up, so are jay's new songs! managed to watch karate kid, jaden is freaking cool and funny! supposed to watch ip man: the legend is born with dear today, but we ended up sleeping at his house and missed the timing lol. so we went udders ice cream cafe, and we had free ice cream cos i found two free coupons in my mailbox. udders is sucha pretty place, and big scoops of icecream are served and the prices are reasonable too. furthermore, its convenient cos its near my house hehe. its much better than ice cream chefs, shall go there someday again! for those interested, its at goodwill court, at siglap area. but there are outlets at west mall, novena and lorong kilat too haha. great place to chill out :)

k

2010-06-10T23:32:00.001+08:00

went outlet to sing on wed, with my sis and her friend :) then zihui laopo and jiahong came to join us, followed by joel who came to find zihui. it's been sucha long time since i last sang with these wonderful peeps! haha so glad i have nice singing kakis!

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caught quite a number of movies recently. watched a nightmare on elm street after work on monday, tgt with laikiat and liangming. nice plot, but with gory scenes lol. and the sound effects are scary! watched killers on tuesday with dear, funny show! and i think the guy looks cute haha. then watched once a gangster with sis on wed since i got complimentary passes for the show, not too bad but the songs being played are rather lame lol. more nice movies coming up! i wanna watch karate kid, eclipse and ip man qian zhuan (though they changed the male lead)!
anyway, i just found the best way to remove makeup! biore cleansing oil facial sheet is really freaking awesome! lol. i dont have to pour makeup remover on cotton pads and take sucha long time to remove my waterproof eyeliner (which is usually freaking hard to remove) anymore, saves all the hassle for lazy people like me haha. no i dont earn commissions through advertising this product, but i just wanna highlight how amazingly this thing works. girls, you should just try it! :D

complicated

2010-06-07T06:27:00.001+08:00

what a loser. if you dare to do something, why dont you dare to admit what you have done? stop finding excuses for yourself. you are sucha coward, without any guts to own up to your actions. stop trying so hard to make yourself sound right when you are not. you are just having a guilty conscience, you are afraid to admit to your mistakes. i look down on you.
and you, shouldnt you try to see the whole picture before you make any judgement? please get your facts right and get to know what's going on before you interfere. i have always believed in your capability, but now im starting to doubt so. im utterly disappointed in you.

maddd

2010-06-05T02:46:00.001+08:00

im amazed how people with low EQ and poor working attitude can still survive in this world today. behaviours such as not appreciating others' help, and taking others for granted are already bad enough. yet people can still behave like they are always right and as if others owe them a living, when others are in fact doing them a favour. i had enough of your heck-care attitude, i dont deserve all this nonsense. we dont need empty vessels, and you are not even attractive enough to be one anyway. yes im a bitch, i bitch about you. say whatever you like, i dont give a damn cos you forced me to be nasty. at least im not being hypocritical, im bitching openly in my space here. aiya whatever lah, I DONT CARE. sounds familiar? :)

dbsk

2010-06-04T12:07:00.001+08:00

found this video while searching for the full mv for 'timeless'. changmin sounded a little like jang ri in! lol.

then saw this too..

but i still prefer kyuhyun's rendition. soothing voice.

love xiah's angelic voice, but kyuhyun's vocal is more suitable for this song haha. xiah's voice is kinda husky, and his pronounciation is kinda ~~weird~~ unique lol. hearts dongbang and suju!

im back!

2010-06-03T19:26:00.000+08:00

not like i was away in another country or whatsoever, but was busy working during the last few weeks so did not have time to blog. or rather, i just died on my bed and remained unconscious every time i reached home after a long day of work lol. now my schedule isnt that packed so im back to post something.
actually i cant rmb what exactly happened in the past one month lol, so i will just write any random issue that comes to my mind. finally met up with zihui and amelia on some day before amelia flies off to taiwan, ate at yuki yaki after i knocked off. thanks zihui for the lovely gifts from taiwan :D then my sis went m'sia and brought me back presents too! got me a bag which i wanted badly, clothes, accessories and many things to eat :D anyway gss is here but i havent got anything for myself yet! and yokesan is joining us in the same school in august! yay can travel to school with her since she's not staying hall too. and socks and bok got married, congrats to the lovely couple! and cck kbox is sucha pretty place, with many shou rens over there. shall go there to sing when it is officially opened! and thompson quit his job and went back to m'sia already, waiting for him to come back sg after a break and meet up with all the ex-ms staffs. and im supposed to meet zihui they all to sing at ms today but im still having headache, gonna meet them next week instead. lots to catch up! :D

男人女人

2010-06-03T02:37:00.000+08:00

在爱情里，女人总比男人多了一点点的不勇敢。女人比男人少了一点自信，却多了一份恐惧。女人总是闹情绪耍脾气，但谁会理解这一切都是因为害怕失去？

fulfilling week

2010-05-13T16:26:00.002+08:00

quick update! worked ot on monday till ten pm. night shift superr sian, nothing to do. stood at zone one and talked cock with sakura that szb all the way till nine plus then went to clear the buffet rooms. somehow, time just passes more quickly when im working morning shift haha. perhaps im used to it already.
tuesday brought my mum out to eat at katong area. then went somewhere else to shop and bought another two tops hehe. im soo gonna stop buying stuffs now, at least for this month so i can have enough to spend next month.
wednesday went out with dear to do facial @ adonis :D the treatment and service are awesome! and my mum commented that my dark circles are lighter by a shade now haha. love the results! then went to cine to watch ip man 2! even though i didnt manage to watch the first show, i still think the second is superr nice. the plot is nice, the fighting scenes are nice, in fact everything is just soo nice. went to bedok 85 after that to eat bah chor mee.
thanks dear for the facial treat, and for the perfume too :D dont be upset already okay, at least you got back your bike now. dont worry, if there's a will there's a way :)

family day

2010-05-09T05:19:00.001+08:00

ate out with family at pp ytd, nan de all of us are free lol. went to walk walk inside pp, actually only wanted to look around but in the end bought four tops ^^ soo long since i last shopped and bought something for myself hehe. and i finally managed to find that everlast top while studying with zihui at tamp that day! :) have to start saving up now so that i will have money to spend, im waiting for GSS! shall look for some other part time jobs (if im not lazy lol) to keep myself occupied during this long term break. anyone got lobang tell me! :D

freedom

2010-05-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

last paper ended ytd! freaking happy that i dont have to face chinese words for three months :D
anyway ytd was a happy happy day cos i managed to cancel two things off my post-exam plans! went straight to ms after my paper and finally caught the show that i had been wanting to watch since long time ago. but felt that ice kacang puppy love was okay okay only.. perhaps i expected too much haha. went to eat at waraku pasta after that, then.. fish spa! it was really a nice experience, but it's freaking ticklish! it feels like someone is tickling your sole with a feather lol. went back to outlet to slack and collect my pay, then went to raffles city's fruit paradise for dinner with dear, lyekiat, liangming, aveline and jiaming. the fruit tarts there are freaking yummy, but this time round i only got to eat the choco banana one cos most flavours were sold out. but still, it's pretty nice :)
thanks dear for trying v hard to plan everything even though you said you suck at planning lol. didnt expect you to bring me to fish spa, a pleasant surprise indeed. i know you want me to relax and enjoy myself after my horrendous papers, really appreciate your effort and i really did enjoy myself alot that day! i know you prefer to watch kickass but i soo wanted to watch ikpl so you decided to watch it with me; i know you dont really like jap food but i had a craving for it so you decided to dine at jap restaurant; i know you dont wish to settle your dinner at fruit paradise cos food is served in a rather small portion but i felt like eating there so you decided to have your dinner there even though i suggested afterwards to dine at another place after having our fruit tarts. even though these may seem like the smallest things, i know you are always giving in to me and trying to make me happy. im thankful i found you. i love you dear :)

seven days!

2010-04-29T13:51:00.000+08:00

two papers down, two more to go! well, the first paper was kinda screwed up. not feeling v positve eh. and for the second one, i didnt finish my last qn..! fifty marks lei..! argh. first two qns are twenty-five marks each, and i wrote more for those two than the last. if i have an amazing writing speed everything will be different.. lol. shall train to write faster! and my hand hurts after doing soo much writing..
anyway, junsu is coming to singapore today! 930pm @ T2! but sadly i cant go, cos i have morning paper tmr.. hopefully i will do better for tmr's paper haa. and im super looking forward to my last day of exams! i already have a long list to do after exams lol. anyone free jio me out after 6th may! okay time to study now!~

you just dont understand

2010-04-25T04:55:00.000+08:00

i waited for you cos i wanted to talk to you about tmr, but now i dont see the need to at all. looking at the time, i dont think i can even talk to you properly. and im not upset over how much sleep you get each day, cos i dont think i should be anyway since it doesnt affect me at all. i just cant be bothered anymore. i swear i will never stay up to wait for you again.

four days

2010-04-23T01:50:00.000+08:00

studied out at bugis today, alone! lol but it was quite efficient, just that i kept wanting to fall asleep. nice lyekiat came over after his lessons to pei me so that i wont doze off, then we waited until dear came to fetch me after work :)
anyway, was supposed to meet zhihao aka minhua's cousin today to pass him her econs text and it was pretty amusing. i had no idea how he looks like and i dont think he knows me either, so i was basically walking around carrying this heavy book and waiting for someone to approach me. sounds like some matchmaking scene sia, wth lol..
and i finally watched monga on tues! really nice show! im not making compliments just cos of the shuai actor okay, the whole show is really interesting and its quite touching at the end of the story haha. i want to watch chu lian hong dou bing too! :D
am still wondering if i should study out again tmr.. yes its sorta efficient, but v bored lei! shall see if i manage to wake up early tmr haa.
and dear, i promise you no more next time okay! :D love you laogong! hehh.

ten days

2010-04-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

many many things happened recently. people around me are all upset. conflicts everywhere. i hate to see them like that. but i cant do much to help. hope everything will be fine in the end..
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today's last day of school for sem two. just submitted my lunwens and finished my presentation, like finally ^^ this reminds me that i have only ten days to study before the start of my exams. will be seeing alot of zihui these few days lol. mugging at cityhall with laopo tmr, hope it will be fruitful day :D shall start to change my sleeping habit and sleep early, before my eye circles become darker! lol. and, im not bo xim!! ~~

tolerance

2010-04-11T05:27:00.000+08:00

looking back, i think i've changed alot. im amazed by my tolerance level. i tried to accept even though im v against such behaviour. but things are often taken for granted. people dont see the whole picture and think only for themselves. sometimes i have an urge to give up everything. i dont know how much longer i can hold on. im sick and tired of everything. its ridiculous to be hearing the same thing over and over again, when nothing eventually changes. i cant be bothered to repeat myself again.

it's been a long time

2010-04-09T05:17:00.000+08:00

another day out with dear :)

went taka to pei him cut hair

dined at kobayashi hangul and pastamania (lol!)

watched clash of the titans

cheesecake cafe!

home sweet home

went to find chocolate at c8 before our movie started, miss all the fun people who used to be in ms. and some random thoughts. think dear's new haircut is nice! and we cant take normal-looking photos by ourselves lol. and im missing him badly now. and i believe u will keep ur promise :) and grats to datou and pohkim. and minhua too? lol.

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taken in the bus. the only normal-looking photo out of the 7654323 photos we attempted to take lol. okay off to do my work now, tata~

遇到

2010-04-06T13:18:00.000+08:00

爱一个人，
要了解，也要开解；要道歉，也要道谢；要认錯，也要改錯；要体贴，也要体谅；
是接受，而不是忍受；是宽容，而不是纵容；是支持，而不是支配；是慰问，而不是质问；是倾诉，而不是控诉；是难忘，而不是遗忘；是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；是为对方默默祈求，而不是向对方诸多要求；可以浪漫，但不要浪费；可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。
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遇到你真的爱的人时，要努力争取和他相伴一生的机会，因为当他离去时，一切都来不及了。
遇到可相信的朋友时，要好好和他相处下去，因为在人的一生中，可遇到知己真的不易。
遇到人生中的贵人时，要记得好好感激，因为他是你人生的转折点。
遇到曾经爱过的人时，记得微笑向他感激，因为他是让你更懂爱的人。
遇到曾经恨过的人时，要微笑向他打招呼，因为他让你更加坚强。
遇到曾经背叛你的人时，要跟他好好聊一聊，因为若不是他今天你不会懂这世界。
遇到曾经偷偷喜欢的人时，要祝他幸福，因为你喜欢他时不是希望他幸福快乐吗？
遇到匆匆离开你人生的人时，要谢谢他走过你的人生，因为他是你精彩回忆的一部分。
遇到曾经和你有误会的人时，要趁现在解清误会，因为你可能只有这一次机会解释清楚。
遇到现在和你相伴一生的人，要百分百感谢他爱你，因为你们现在都得到幸福和真爱。

just a random thought

2010-04-03T23:46:00.001+08:00

not speaking a word doesnt mean that one is okay with it,
and being okay with it doesnt mean that one doesnt feel anything.
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sigh, stomach still hurts. i swear im not going to dine at waraku again :(

人生

2010-03-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

关于爱情：不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有的就是最好的。不要认为还年轻可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的。不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情可以和你一起坐火车的。不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以让你们富裕的。不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现因为这个原因而反放弃的爱情，将是你一生的悔恨。其实对于爱情，越单纯越幸福。一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的，经历的太多了，会麻木；分离多了，会习惯；换恋人多了，会比较；到最后，你不会再相信爱情；你会自暴自弃；你会行尸走肉；你会与你不爱的人结婚，就这样过一辈子。

也许爱情是一部忧伤的童话，惟其遥远才真实。放弃一个爱你的人并不痛苦，放弃一个你爱的人那才痛苦。若是有缘，时间空间都不是距离，若是无缘总是相聚也无法合意。凡事不必太在意，更不需去强求，就让一切随缘。逃避不一定躲得过；面对不一定最难过；孤独不一定不快乐；得到不一定长久；失去不一定不再拥有。爱是一种享受，即使痛苦也会觉得幸福；爱是一种体会，即使心碎也会觉得甜蜜；爱是一种经历，即使破碎也会觉得美丽；不要因为寂寞而错爱，不要因为错爱而寂寞一生。

关于伴侣：伴侣不是结婚时发誓非你不娶或非你不嫁的那个人，而是发现你身上有许多缺点仍然选择你的那个人；伴侣不是生活中你爱吃黄瓜他也爱吃黄瓜的那个人，而是你吃蛋清他吃蛋黄的那个人；伴侣不是天黑了和你一起手挽手走进饭店的那个人，而是守在门口巴望你回来共进晚餐的那个人；伴侣不是和你大谈爱情，把“我爱你”挂在嘴边的那个人，而是和你平淡的唠叨柴米油盐、锅碗瓢盆的那个人。在幸福的婚姻中，伴侣已不是一个具体的人，而是你和他在几十年的岁月中沉淀下来的：一份默契、一份温情、一份平淡、一份理解、一份宽容。爱他就要让他开心，这就是伴侣… …

关于承诺：在古希腊传说中，情侣都将戒指套在对方的中指上，因为他们相信那儿有一根血管直通心脏。所以戒指的意思就是用心承诺！但是人世间有多少爱能生死白头，又有多少的情可以天长地久？所以你选择共度一生的未必是你最爱的，你最爱的未必能和你共度一生。多少的有情人走不进彼此的今生，只能苦苦地相约于来世；而多少的男男女女走过爱情走进婚姻却不会再珍惜彼此的付出。所以记得珍惜你爱的人，把每一个平淡的今天当成是彼此相依的最后一刻，好好握紧爱人的手，即使他容颜已老，即使他满面沧桑，那也是你记忆中永恒的温馨。别忘了守住对他的承诺，别忘了牵住他的手，一生一世一辈子… …

关于人生：人生如梦，岁月无情。蓦然回首，才发现人活着是一种心情。穷也好，富也好，得也好，失也好。一切都是过眼云烟。想想，不管昨天、今天、明天，能豁然开朗就是美好的一天。不管亲情、友情、爱情，能永远珍惜就是好心情。记得有一个经典短信这样写着：曾经拥有的不要忘记；已经得到的更加珍惜；属于自己的不要放弃；已经失去的留作回忆；想要得到的一定要努力；累了把心靠岸；选择了就不要后悔；苦了才懂得满足；痛了才享受生活；伤了才明白坚强；总有起风的清晨；总有绚烂的黄昏；总有流星的夜晚。人生就像一张有去无回的单程车票，没有彩排，每一场都是现场直播。把握好每次演出便是对人生最好的珍惜。把握现在，畅享人生！

关于微笑：被人误解的时候能微微的一笑，这是一种素养；受委屈的时候能坦然的一笑，这是一种大度；吃亏的时候能开心的一笑，这是一种豁达；处窘境的时候能自嘲的一笑，这是一种智慧；无奈的时候能达观的一笑，这是一种境界；危难的时候能泰然一笑，这是一种大气；被轻蔑的时候能平静的一笑，这是一种自信；失恋的时候能轻轻的一笑，这是一种洒脱。不管是有什么事情，为了什么原因，我们每天都要开心一笑~~

关于生活：日出东海落西山，愁也一天，喜也一天；遇事不钻牛角尖，人也舒坦，心也舒坦；每天领取谋生钱，多也喜欢，少也喜欢；少荤多素日三餐，粗也香甜，细也香甜；新旧衣服不挑捡，好也御寒，赖也御寒；常与知己聊聊天，古也谈谈，今也谈谈；全家老少互慰勉，贫也相安，富也相安。

关于幸福：相传幸福是个美丽的玻璃球，跌碎散落在世间的每个角落。有的人捡到多些，有的人捡到少些，却没有人能拥有全部。爱你所爱选你所选，珍惜现在所拥有的一切。人活着就是一种心情，把握今天，设置明天，储存永远。只要用心感受，幸福就会永远存在。 人总是对自己拥有的东西不珍惜，直到不再拥有时才会加倍怀念，而在得知自己快失去自己所拥有的东西而又无能为力时，就寻死觅活地不肯放手，歇斯底里往往发生在这个时候，而对于生命的执著确实是到死才放手！

人生，没有那么简单… … 幸福伴随悲伤，快乐总和痛苦相伴，这就是人生。今天总要过去，明天充满未知，自己活得快乐没有遗憾就好。

hesitance

2010-03-25T16:06:00.002+08:00

i dont mind doing more for my close ones. i dont expect you to do the same. but i thought you would at least rmb. it's disappointing to see this happen not once but twice. it's discouraging cos i know you dont bother.. now im hesitant.. should i, this time round?
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and how can anyone receive six huge mosquito bites on the same leg in just five min! grr. this is irritating.

bunny

2010-03-25T00:15:00.002+08:00

bazaar in school again :) bought tubes, top and customised brass choker with charms. was hesitating if i should buy the necklace actually. had alot of necklaces at home already, and im pretty lazy to wear accessories nowadays lol. but the bunny is soo cute, and minhua thinks it's soo me =.=

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anyway, cheer up zihui laopo! and get well soon get-get! damn it, my shoulder/neck still hurts :(

looking back

2010-03-23T00:41:00.000+08:00

thanks phang, you really know me well. you are a great captain, and definitely a wonderful friend. thanks lyekiat bestfriend for talking some sense into me. and all others for your concern, really appreciate it. i admit i was irrational. i was rather disturbed by your behaviour, and many thoughts just came to my mind. but luckily i didnt act on impulse. i love you dear :)
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had a kbox bbq gathering on sunday. chunzhong's house is freaking huge, and he prepared super alot of food! had a great time, enjoyed all the small talks and inside jokes and oh-so-dramatic scenes lol. love this group of fun pple!
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went ms again today. went to find jiaming since it's her last day at work, and watched kidnapper with dear, huili and kahpoh. everything's fine except seeing this person who spoiled my day. hello? i dont owe you anything, so dont give me that fucking attitude or show me your idiotic face. and i had to see you not only once but twice, suay to the max. please grow up and behave like someone nearing his thirties. stop being so childish and engaging in such meaningless acts. get a life, you short, fat and ugly freak. i dont care even if you happened to see this, you can jolly well assume that im talking about you. i dont give a damn :)

insignificant

2010-03-21T00:48:00.000+08:00

some things can never be the same again.
it's like how some things once broken can never be mended again.
no matter how hard you try some things just choose to remain in your mind.
now i truly understand.
you are still the same.
perhaps promises are meant to be broken.

idk

2010-03-20T00:56:00.001+08:00

why do things have to turn out this way. does it really matter that much.
is it only me. or is it mutual.
perhaps it is gone.
maybe he was right.

laopos

2010-03-16T21:26:00.000+08:00

finally met up with zihui and amelia laopos after school today :) went white sands to have our sakae buffet lol, and im still feeling v full now! anyway thanks for your suuuper belated gifts haha, and i forgot to bring mine again! argh. they are still lying at some corner on my table.. hope i will rmb to bring them the next time! and photos are with zihui, send me sooon! :D and and..

tada, my name! haa. i was bored lol. erm okay not just only me, we all started to write our names on our icecream cos we were bored haha. eh let's plan our next meetup!

and minhua, im looking forward to first of april! please change it sooon, and i will make sure im the first to like and comment! lol.

long long day tmr~ music clinic workshop with peter tan~

rings :D

2010-03-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

finally collected our rings at tampines one just now! :D

lessons ended early today so went outlet early after accompanying minhua to nanyang supermart to buy stuffs. see im sucha nice gf, went down so early to wait for him knock off haha. somemore i went down alone, so lonely you know lol. okay, the rings..

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im very guai one, im forced to take the second photo lol!

and, im glad i didnt miss my very early lesson today! hope i dont miss my 830am lesson tmr!

and and, am meeting laopos tmr for buffet! :D like finally haha. im soo looking forward to last day of exams, then.. three months of break! woohoo~ but right now, have to start reading my piles of readings first lol. goshh..

the only way is up

2010-03-14T18:40:00.001+08:00

series of unfortunate events. broke my necklace, had major stomach cramp during work, had my right eye swollen again.. and fyi, it's not just a small and not obvious swell this time round. now i cant really open my eye, and my right eye has become just half the size of my left eye. now i need my specs again, and chocolates to ease me of my pain. fml.

updates

2010-03-12T13:34:00.000+08:00

okay ytd finally met up with him :) im lazy to type in prose form so i shall list in point form lol.

bugis si ma lu temple return hongbao
bras basah complex find my dictionary
school for two hours lesson
plaza sing make couple ring
ice cream chefs @ east coast road
home sweet home :)

thanks dear for sending me to school, going back to jp to help me buy my dictionary, and waiting two hours for me while i was having lesson in school. movie next time okay, when any movie attracts you haha. and i broke my curse already, it's time to break yours too lol ^^

op

2010-03-11T02:02:00.000+08:00

yay, ht101 presentation's over! and it turned out to be better than we thought, at least guan laoshi didnt criticise us when we expected her to haha. and i finally finished my part for the written report too! next up, translation in-class practice this friday, resume due next monday, another group presentation next wednesay.. and two 5000 words lunwen/ report due sooon! exmas coming up too. everyone's mugging, i need to start studying too! stress stress stress :( and i don't know what's happening to me, i kept having problem waking up these few days. i can't miss lessons anymore, i must buck up! jiayou ivy!
on a lighter note, i will be seeing dear tmr :) haven't seen him for quite some time as i was busy with my work recently. pei-ing him go temple pray pray, then go bras basah buy my dictionary for translation practice. and now, i suddenly have a craving for rockery's milk tea! and ice cream chefs!~

hectic

2010-03-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

i dont know what's happening to me. im starting to lose interest. things are not the same anymore. i need a serious thought.
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recess week turns out to be busier than normal school days. many many asms and presentations lined up. soo much research work to be done. spent my first two days discussing ht101 and researching for materials at the various libraries in school, and national library. friday and saturday are packed with impresario rehearsal and grand finals. and i dont expect myself to be able to complete anything since i will only be home at midnight. gotta work on sunday too, so that leaves me with wednesday and thurday to finish everything else. how wonderful. wish me luck.

2010-02-23T01:34:00.001+08:00

headache

2010-02-20T23:26:00.001+08:00

headache again.. :( stupid migraine.
and soo much work to be done nowadays. hw111c, hc205, ht101..
stress. mid-term asms coming up soon too.
headache headache go away..

dear's 20th

2010-02-20T03:15:00.000+08:00

one whole post dedicated to you! haa.

met him in the morning to spend his birthday tgt with him :) went his house to wait for him to prepare. berfore that, bought a cake nearby and brought to his house to give him a surprise. and he bathed super long, hai me relight the candles for dno how many times thinking that he's out lol. then, took public transport (second time! lol) to boonlay and ate at jp. actually wanted to dine at swensen's but there's a freaking long queue, so dined at din tai fung instead. xiaolongbao is nice! ^^ and you should seriously consider taking public transport more often lah so you can style your hair, nice lei! HAHA.

before going out

birthday boy

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cake

hope you enjoyed your birthday! :D

140210

2010-02-15T03:47:00.000+08:00

happy valentine's and cny to all!
recent updates:
friday. wanted to go jp to look for vday presents first during my three hours break, before minhua comes and meet me after her lesson. then nice lyekiat came all the way from tamp to boonlay to pei me cos i was alone. gan dong lei, make an exception for me to come down in ur uniform lol. thanks best friend! :D then minhua came over for lunch, and they psycho-ed me to skip ht401 seminar. bad influence! lol. so went down outlet and waited for dear to knock off. thanks dear for the necklace! love it v much! :) and you really made something hehh. even though it's only a short msg, but at least u did the whole thing yourself ^^
saturday. supposed to work 11-7pm but kna cut schedule at 4pm, cos super few customers since it's chu xi. for the whole morning only open until zone one lol. blur sakura thought yuki opens at 5pm when it actually closes at 5pm that day, so in the end she and tess had nowhere to eat. walk around with them for super long before we found a phillipines restaurant which was still open, but we went in and realised we couldnt read the whole menu at all so we walked out when pple were not looking lol. damn malu sia! finally dined at xingwang hk cafe, and stanley and petr came to join us too. went home alone cos dear had to work till 8pm, and i couldnt wait for him since i had to reach home by 8pm for reunion dinner. waited for laikiat to knock off then walked to suntec with lks and liangming to bus home. thanks peeps for walking me to my bus stop and pei-ing me wait for bus, and only leaving for your bus stop after my bus arrived although you were in a rush :) glad that dear likes the pillow that i made for him ^^ sorry i didnt notice the stains on the shirt when i exchanged it that day :( and I WANT TO SEE YOUR TOENAILS! LOL :D
sunday. went ahma's house to bai nian. ate steamboat (again!) and watched hai pai tian xin! i know im abit slow to only start on it now, but really nice lei the show! :D shall finish the show someday when i have the time haa. reached home at almost midnight, tired.. only won a little from playing blackjack and dai dee today, but better than nothing haha :)
PHOTO UPDATES ANOTHER TIME! tata~
love doesn't make the world go round. love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

:(

2010-02-10T04:39:00.000+08:00

im officially broke now. went town with minhua deren and zihui today to walk walk and shop for our stuffs. then minhua and deren left first, left the two of us to continue walking. and omg. i can conclude that (ivy + zihui) at town = $$$ flying. but at least im more disciplined okay, half of the money i spent today is not for myself lol. i miss zihui laopo alot!
and my right eye swells for no reason again! and its still swollen now =.= i dont want to go school with swollen eyes! :( why are my eyes always so problematic, grr this sucks :(

the world is so unfair

2010-02-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

i dont understand why humans are so self-centred. seem so nice when you are desperate for people's help, then throw them aside and leave them to die when you dont really need them anymore. what happens to all the promises? everything's an excuse just to make yourself feel better. have you ever cared how others feel? it's not true that if one doesnt make a din out of it, it means he is okay about it and is willing to accept it. it doesnt work this way. stop exploiting others and taking advantage of them. please spare a thought for others. dont act for your own interests, but at the expense of others.

h4m :D

2010-02-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

ytd was super slack, only had two hours lessons from 1530-1730. dear had his off ytd and he accompanied me all the way to school, which is at boonlay! lol. take train with me sia, even though he always complain he dun like to take public transport ^^ ate lunch with him at jp before taking bus to school, met minhua at medical centre to take her blood test report then walk to north spine for lesson tgt. by the time we reached the lt, it's one hour past our lesson time lol. rushed down to tampines after lesson, met him and his friends to catch the 1910 show-- 14 blades. pretty nice show even though it seemed quite boring at the start :)
missed 0930 tutorial today cos minhua and i made a silly mistake. we prepared materials for tutorial four when we are supposed to have our third tutorial today =.= since we have to present every tutorial and cant go in unprepared cos every presentation is graded, we decided to jolly well pon this time round lol. im pretty sure we will score damn high for our presentation next week huhh, since we spent two weeks to prepare the tutorial =.=
met theclique for dinner at ms, nice cy came all the way to ntu to fetch us there :) dined at mof, it was sorta a farewell dinner for jamie and jiexin before they leave for australia on the 11th and 18th respectively. attendance was surprisingly good, sixteen pple managed to turn up :D oh yah, thanks yokesan and vayl for the belated xmas cards and gift! ^^
and im currently looping biao da ai by jj lin, nice duet! jiahong intro the song to me and ask me to learn so we can sing tgt next time haha. i must learn it by tmr! and finally getting my pay tmr! :D

宁愿笑着流泪，也不哭着说后悔

2010-02-03T22:40:00.000+08:00

“吃醋是因为喜欢
生气是因为在乎
发呆是因为想念
伤心只是因为不想失去"
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msg from chocolate :) it's been a long time since i last heard from her, hope she's doing fine now..
everybody's falling sick, think im falling sick too :(
and jiexin and jamie are leaving for australia soon :(
the only thing im looking forward to is tues! :)
and zihui! when are u free to go cz's house!! lol

accomplishment

2010-02-02T21:41:00.001+08:00

feel soo accomplished ^^ haha credits to minhua! :)
and lousy photographer ivan keeps taking ugly photos of us! better dont tag me! lol.
thanks minhua for ur 爱心面包! and ivan for the honey lemon :D

semi finals

2010-01-31T03:49:00.002+08:00

woke up early in the morning today even though i had no school, cos i had to reach cck by 1030am to help out for semi finals. was quite slack the whole day, and managed to watch most of the performances :) almost everyone was superrr zai, be it vocal solo, group or street dance. saw miaoru and talked a little with her, its been sooo long since ive last seen her. it feels good to see a familiar face again, even though ive not met up with her for the past few years. saw evan too, he sounded not v hopeful of getting into the grand finals actually. cos his other friend (who's supposed to be in the band too) cant make it for the competiton as he is still in hk lol. anw congrats to miaoru for getting into both vocal solo and group finals, and evan for getting into group finals! see, i told u u really did well! :D
managed to catch all of the street dance performances today, and some teams were really awesome! and amelia and mavis were ogling at the o.k guys throughout lol. thought every team improved quite alot from their previous audition, all thanks to chun's many many comments haha :)
anyway jiahong came to watch too, then i skipped debrief and we went down to ms to sing after the release of results cos we both had an urge to sing. according to him, its cos watching all those zai pple perform somehow reignites our passion and makes us want to improve haha. was upset over some issue but everything's fine now cos i believe u will keep ur promise, right? lol. please think twice before u act, dont live in regret. and live for urself, not for others. only change when u realise where u went wrong; dont change urself to please someone, cos its meaningless and it makes it tiring for u to hold on :)

25 hours

2010-01-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

i need twenty-five hours a day! so many things, so little time! arghh.
remaining silent doesnt imply that im oblivious of whats happening around me; it just means that i cant be bothered anymore.

add / drop

2010-01-27T05:19:00.000+08:00

add / drop period is over! finally managed to get another elective on the last day, got another translation elective. was quite undecisive actually, looked through the course outline of ht401 and thought it looked quite tough. but since i intended to minor in translation, i thought i should just get it over and done with cos i have to take it sooner or later. and i was quite desperate for an elective then. looking back now, i sorta regretted it lol. five thousand words essay, kill me please =.= i got a feeling this sem is not going to be easy for me, and my lessons are ending late on fridays now :(

anyway, thanks best friend for pei-ing me go all the way home that day haha. honoured sia, since u usually only pei pple to mrt station. bu kui shi best friend! :D

went ps with minhua on mon cos i wanted to get sth from spotlight. after that continue to walk walk see see at town area, then to tampines but didnt manage to buy anything else :( throughout, minhua kept complaining about her crave for coffee bean's caramel macchiato so we went to look for one. saw many many starbucks and no coffee bean, but she insisted in finding one cos she claimed coffee bean's nicer =.= walked for super long before we reached one at 313 finally. then went to find deren and friends for awhile before i left, and nice minhua walked me to train station hehh. GOODBYE BABY! LOL!

and dear keeps saying that he only has one more day to live, cos he claims he has to commit to his no life full time job tmr. shall be nice tmr and go down after school to wait for him to knock off, attend his opening ceremony lol. but then again, im always nice haa :D

and zihui laopo, dont think about soo many things le okay? since everything doesnt matter anymore, just concentrate on what u are doing now and make the best out of it! :)

lastly, ..

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tada! cute right? lol. yenteng helped me buy from woodlands one hehh. now we have one pooh (sakura), one mickey (yenteng), one hello kitty (kailing), and one chip! :D differentiate chip and dale! chip has black nose and teeth at the centre, dale has red nose and teeth at the side lol ^^

:)

2010-01-24T01:55:00.002+08:00

everything's fine now, at least i think it is. thanks everyone for your concern and for being there for me, esp zihui laopo and minhua. somehow you are just able to make things turn out right :) im glad i was rational and did not give up on you then. even though you arent exactly v nice to me, ... blahblah (rants rants rants! i know you read this, lol) ... , but i still feel for you all the same and i dont wanna regret :D

finally met up with zihui laopo on friday. met her and her bf at klp, and ate at nihon mura before we proceeded to room 36 to sing. somehow i think ms staffs look much more friendlier lol. in the end, we only sang a song or two and ended up talking about many many things. thats what happens when we dont see each other for soo long haha. we can basically just talk for hours non stop, perhaps thats because we are in similar situations and feel the same way as each other? :D dont worry he is very fine, dont bother about what others think if you feel comfortable with him. have confidence and must be happy too okay! :) looking forward to next friday~

watched tooth fairy with dear today before we start work, actually wanted to watch alvin and the chipmunks 2/ the spy next door but its either the slot was too early or there wasnt any on that day =.= but who cares, tooth fairy turned out to be nicer than what i thought haha. i want to watch my ex!! :D

anyway, hope to see get-get back to her cheerful and crazy self again. have confidence in yourself, i believe you can do it! :)

and welcome back, vayl! :D

一波未平，一波又起

2010-01-21T00:00:00.002+08:00

心里一直乱乱的。最近经历了很多，也被许多问题困扰着。好想做些什么，却都帮不上忙。想抛下所有顾虑，却无法置之不理。心有余力不足。。。
其实打从心底，我也想过要放弃。也许我缺乏安全感，又或许我失去了信任。有时总觉得一切让我快透不过气来，好累好辛苦。不想去捉摸，也不想再猜测。一切似乎在一瞬间就能变得好脆弱。
要别人对你坦白，就不应对他人有所隐瞒。。。

the wound heals, but the scar remains

2010-01-15T20:35:00.001+08:00

期望越大，失望就越大。没有期望，是不是就不会失望?
i want to forgive, but i cant forget..

disappointed

2010-01-11T22:45:00.002+08:00

often, the smallest things are the ones that show the most.. i feel unimportant.
dont ask me why.

sem two

2010-01-09T03:42:00.001+08:00

allocation of electives for next sem is out! managed to get one elective, dont know if i should feel happy or sad cos i hoped to get two (even though it's almost impossible lol) and i didnt get any language course (jap/korean). but still, i managed to get a translation elective this sem cos i hoped to do a minor in translation :) have to wait for the add/drop period on monday and fight with the whole school to grab a vacancy for another elective online. so now, i got hc151 hc203 hc205 ht101 and hw111c registered for this sem :) school's starting on monday, and im still in a holiday mood. help i need motivation, i have to buck up this sem so as not to get shitty results again damn :(
on a side note, meeting saxes pple tmr night for dinner at ms (yes, like finally!) :D it's been sucha long time since i last met up with them, and i think everyone's changed pretty much. hope nobody's gonna feel out of place. and somehow, im starting to miss all those days in band. i miss playing my instrument, even though i ponned practices on quite a regular basis last time lol. when you had it, you wont treasure it. now that you've lost it, you would miss it terribly. you see, the grass is always greener on the other side :D

get-get!

2010-01-05T20:18:00.002+08:00

presenting to you our very own hair model..

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get-get is so cute~ credits to hairstylists dennis chng yong boon and jacky tan jun jia lol!

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sometimes i wonder.. if everything's a mistake from the start.

somehow, some things are just out of your control and it makes one so disheartened to keep trying. perhaps, you dont really understand me as well as you think you do. or maybe, im just starting to feel tired trying to change myself. just so tired of everything..

rant

2010-01-02T03:35:00.002+08:00

im sorry but i really need to rant out my displeasure.
as far as i can rmb, you were the one who emphasized the importance of teamwork repeatedly. you mentioned we should not draw such a clear line between the two groups because we are one big family and we are all in it together. but from what i can see, that doesnt seem to be the case. if thats really so, why is there obvious unfair treatment among this one big family? why are some reaping off benefits from the hard work of others? and why are you placing some at topmost priority while neglecting the others, whom you claimed are of the same big family? i cant think of anyone whos more contradicting than you are. are you that old and senile which makes you so absent-minded to forget what you've spoken previously, or are you of such a low intelligence that you need someone to help you in organizing your thoughts before you speak because you utter rubbish without you yourself realising it? whichever is the case, i doubt you will be able to convince others in the future. talk is cheap. and i dont think you deserve our respect either. respect has to be earned, and is not to be forced upon. if you think you have the capabilities, stop resorting to underhand means to climb and prove yourself. think you are great? try harder, you are not even close. maybe, great at spoiling others' day. just like how you've managed to spoil mine :)

2009

2010-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

to sum up, 2009 has been a fulfilling year for me. browsed through many random old photos in my phone and com. brought back much memories, both happy and unhappy ones.

made many many new friends this year. colleagues from emiko and kbox, pple from studiowu and school mates in ntu. often i thought of leaving ms when pple started to leave in batches, but im glad i didnt cos i came to know many wonderful pple there. life in uni was great too, just a little stressful nearing exams and end of datelines. but im lucky to have minhua in same course and tutorial groups as me :)

then again, pple started to leave me. anting vayl and fongba went to china to futher their studies. im looking forward to jan/feb when they will all be back in sg again!

friends come and go, but im thankful my laopos stayed by my side at all times. i truly enjoy their company and am glad that even though we're each busy with our own stuffs, we still have regular meetups and can just sit down and chat for hours :)

im glad i have my darling too, who's always there for me when im feeling down. it feels good to know that u have someone u can always count on when u need him :)
throughout this year, i think i've grown up quite alot and started to look at things differently. to those who had/tried to hurt me, i thank u for showing me ur true colours and making me realise i was too naive and innocent then. i realised trust is something once lost cannot be found again, and i learnt that love not time heals all wounds :)

last but not least, am grateful to everyone who played a part in my life. im sorry if i was mia all of a sudden in anytime of the year, and i hope everyone is doing fine now :)

2010, a new start. new dreams and new aspirations. hope life's better for everyone of us. happy new year to all~

release of results

2009-12-30T02:17:00.001+08:00

finally watched avatar today! nice! :D met jiahong and lyekiat at ms to sing while waiting for dear's lessons to end then go ehub! watch the 3d one hehh. actually he watched it yesterday le but nice lei pei me watch again :)
received a msg by minhua while i was still at outlet, telling me gpa was out already. was super anxious to check my results but nobody brought laptop along so borrowed phone from jason to go online. in the end used up his battery but still didnt manage to check due to lack of internal memory =.= went online immediately after i reached home, and was a little disappointed over my results. nevertheless, its already over so only can study harder and chiong for next sem. lesson learnt, no more missing of lessons (be it intentionally ponned or unintentionally overslept! lol).
on a side note, i wonder how somebody can have such immature behaviour. in case u did not realise, u are already in ur twenties so do behave like one. totally cant be bothered with u, grow up pls.

quick update

2009-12-27T01:27:00.002+08:00

thanks longfei for the many many chocos and sweets, jiayao bestfriend for the xmas card and letter, and all for the well wishes :)
was supposed to go back outlet today to learn how to operate the new system but they have yet to change the old system to the new touchscreen one. in the end went out with mum to eat dinner and walk walk, bought another denim shorts! :) going down ms tmr instead, shunbian check schedule and sing haha. got sudden urge to sing!
anyway, managed to register four courses for next sem. hope i can get two more electives :D

刺猬

2009-12-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

最后一抹的微笑
在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单是寂寞或悲惨
一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无声黑暗
心痛的大声呼喊

我想我没那么坚强
每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象哭吧

christmas day

2009-12-25T01:49:00.001+08:00

merry xmas to all! :) presenting to you our very own santa claus..

HOHOHO! laughed till i cried when i saw him in this outfit lol. and not my photography skills lousy, its cos he kept moving around =.=

anyway, wishing everyone best of luck and hope you have a great day ahead :)

典型的天蝎座

2009-12-24T04:05:00.001+08:00

神秘. 有着强烈的第六感. 自我要求高. 爱恨分明. 外表看似静内心却充满活力.
这就是我。

死小孩s

2009-12-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

i can now conclude, not all kids are adorable. imagine having 106 pple at ur zone, of which 100 are kids and the rest adults. felt soo desperate and helpless, especially when the kids started to cry in front of you =.= im amazed by the deafening sound they produced and the mess they created, it looked totally like they had just finished fighting a war after they left the place lol. lucky i had lyekiat and shernee to help me clear the rooms, and jiaming and phang came over to help afterwards too :)
anyway, zihui's auditon @ music forest tmr! so sad im working, cannot go support. dun stress gal, have fun and enjoy urself haha.
and hope i wont be late for briefing again tmr!

photo updates

2009-12-18T02:11:00.001+08:00

more photos next time, im lazy to upload everything now lol. anw i realised i forgot to take individual photo with zihui that day =.= btw li li is coming back to singapore! :)

><

2009-12-17T02:17:00.002+08:00

NIGHTMARE.
"omg his dp is giving me night mare"

for goodness' sake

2009-12-16T01:33:00.001+08:00

get a life.

i love xmas

2009-12-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

christmas is coming! :) it feels good to see beautiful lightings everywhere. i love this festive season, esp the christmas sales lol. went to walk walk a few days ago and bought three tops and one denim shorts. it's been so long since i last shopped, shall save up and go for a shopping spree someday haha.
anyway, today was seriously draining. didnt even have time to stop and rest for awhile throughout the five hours of work, and only managed to find time to dabao for the rest at around four pm. damn shagged :(
on a sidenote, meet my laopos for brunch in the morning before going for work. ate alot at shokudo cos everything just looks damn freaking appetising haha. and thanks laopos for the lovely surprise, love it so much esp the handmade calender! i know u all spent lots of time and effort on it hehh, love u all to bits :) photos next time~

panyuwen

2009-12-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

thanks everyone for ur concern, im feeling a little better already :)
anw zicki uploaded the photos le, finally!~

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damn

2009-12-10T01:25:00.001+08:00

feels terrible to be sick :(

peter pan :D

2009-12-09T00:31:00.002+08:00

worked 11-7pm today, was soo happy that i came cos pan yu wen came to ms! :) hehh he stayed at room 801 from seven to eight pm. phang was so nice to let me serve them drinks, and jimmy managed to fight for morning shift pple to take group photo with him (and im standing beside him!) haha. printed it out and he signed on it, now waiting for dearest zicki to upload it online so i can kup soft copy :D me and jiaming managed to shake hands with him, wanted to hug him one but didnt wan to scare him LOL. photos update tmr~ 潘王子~~

recent updates

2009-12-06T00:31:00.000+08:00

went outlet at eleven ytd, waited for junbin and chunboon to come over then go sing awhile before go dabao lunch and start work. then, samantha and some juniors came over to sing too. worked till eight plus again, super tired. was at zone one, cannot relax :( think im still not used to going back to work sia, every time after work i will complain tired lol.
went to sing with zihui jiahong and paul today. ate sushi again with zihui! :D keith guolong weichiang came back today also. part timers got their schedule cut till 3pm so ~~lyekiat~~ datou jiayao blahh came to join us after work. then dear came and meet datou go suntec tgt eat steamboat while i went off to meet mum at tampines. anyway, checked my schedule for next week le. suntec close le now ms got so many staffs, fight with so many pple for schedule so hours getting lesser sia. working three days next week, but hours are about the same as when i work two days on weekends last time =.=
btw the updated schedule is pretty much diff from what we expected. in the end huili and xiaoyu not coming up to work morning, and guorui is not morning shift captain. instead, dennis and phang are coming up. and liyin zhonglian are back to work next week, like finally haha :)

busy day

2009-12-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

tired tired tired. have been working nine hours these few days. workload is heavier. more customers during the holidays and more new staffs to teach. standing at zone two these three days, sian cannot relax at all. perhaps im still too used to school days, sitting down attending lessons with long breaks in between. and i realise im still as injury prone as ever, just that now i dont realise it when i injure myself and only see them hours later lol. anyway cut my finger when forced to cut nails ytd, and today the same finger was cut again by a drink menu. feel so dumb =.=
working at two tmr, dno if i should come at eleven. im so proud of myself, im not late for work even though the punch card machine is back to the accurate time now haha. im early, and always in time for briefing hehh. dno how long this will last though.
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two months :)

its over :D

2009-12-02T03:35:00.002+08:00

screwed up my last paper. actually i dont think its very difficult but i just couldnt recall what i've studied =.= glad that exams are finally over, but that means i have to start worrying about my results lol.
anyway went down ms to sing after that, met jiahong first then zihui lyekiat and dear came over. reached at one plus and sang until nine, long time never sing already haha. and when reached the song 'yi fu zhi ming' the three guys suddenly went kisiao with all the screaming and shrilling lol. stunned.
on my way back ytd, i fell asleep on his bike cos i was just soo tired. slept for only two hours the day before as i was busy doing last min revision. i xia xing, lucky never fall off sia. scary. i swear i will never fall asleep again lol.
worked 2-7pm today. sian they adjust the punchcard machine to the correct time le so i must reach ten min earlier than before. last time machine late ten min i also punch in late or just on time only, hope i wont be late these few days hehh. working on thurs fri and sat this week, but the hours v little. when suntec pple all come over i think i will have even less.
got a headache when i was about to knock off and it became worse after i reached home. got a feeling im gna fall sick soon. must be my sis pass the virus to me. slept super early just now at around ten plus, then auto wake up and cant get back to sleep again lol.
by the way, theres one new morning staff today, think shes so cute hehh. nice and friendly, just abit shy. likes stephanie's songs also, my sister haha. now got one more person to talk to at work le :D
and jiayou to amelia, xinku a few more days and it will be over le :)

five more days

2009-11-26T01:59:00.004+08:00

one more paper. die. dno how im gonna study for my last paper when i've ponned around 3/4 of the lectures and missed quite a number of tutorials =.=
anyway, went down ms today after my paper. met zihui to go sing cos she just finished her exams. btw when i was still in school (at boonlay!) dear said he go prepare first so can reach outlet early and asked me to tell him when i reached cityhall. thought he will reach much earlier than me but when i reached cityhall, he's still at home (!!) tskkk lol =.= saw a few new staffs there, and realised there is like a serious shortage of staffs working there now. wanted to find jimmy to ask him sth, in the end he's away for meeting so didnt get to see him. waited for jiayao best friend to knock off then left together with him, liyin and a new suntec staff i cant rmb his name haha. going down on monday again after my last paper, with zihui and probably my sister and some others :) wish me best of luck for my paper haa. and hope phang gets well soon :D
***
it shocked me when u told me about her, but i was even more dumbfounded when u told me the silly things u did. it had never come across my mind that u will do sucha thing. it hurts, it takes time, but i believe u will be able to get it over soon. no matter what, rmb that there are pple around u who care. learn to let go and stand up strong. dont make pple worry about u anymore. do justice to urself. dun harm ur health, and rmb ur promise. always rmb we're just a call/sms away. cheer up, u will find someone better :)
哭过就好了痛都会走的记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的 :)

counting down

2009-11-23T20:14:00.000+08:00

two papers done. two more to go. after monday can go party haha. i need to shop. i need to sing. i need to meet up with various pple (and plan saxes outing)! but before that, i still need to study and finish my exams first =.= pray hard i will do well for my papers. off to mug~

drained

2009-11-13T14:02:00.001+08:00

okay i lied. im back to blog again, but may not update as often. modem is working again, and ive finally finished my three horrible asms. slept at five ytd, i think my panda eyes are getting worse. dragged my way to school today, felt like a walking zombie =.= today's the last day of the sem, then one week of study break, and then exams! mug. end off with photo taken during dinner with impresario pple at xingwang~

screwed up

2009-11-10T15:33:00.001+08:00

so many things undone, and exams are coming up. feeling the stress now..
anw my modem screwed up and i cant connect to the internet at home, so i only can research and do my work in school. how lucky =.=
will not be blogging anytime soon i suppose, maybe after my exams. cya till then :)

右边的石头

2009-11-07T00:47:00.002+08:00

“有个人的右边有块很大很大的石头，几乎是像山一般大的石头。这个人很想爬上石头顶端看上面的风景，可惜尝试很多次都没成功。最后他放弃了，只好往左边走。但不管他走了多远、看了多少美景，他依然念念不忘右边的石头，甚至还会折返，再试一次。”...

右边的石头，无法实现却也让人无法忘记。因为向往未曾完成的，所以认为那必定是最美好的。因为一心追求完美，所以总放不下也耿耿于怀。因为得不到释然，所以往往活在遗憾中。若要摆脱心中的遗憾就得挣脱对过往的牵挂；一旦决定了就不后悔，即使错过了也不回头。积极的往前走，或许眼前看到的才是最完美的...

big thanks

2009-11-06T04:03:00.003+08:00

hoho. woke up late today and reached school at around 950am when lesson's supposed to start at 930am, so decided not to go for econs tutorial since it usually ends early at around 1015am but was feeling rather guilty about missing lessons. then went to check my email and realised my teacher last min cant make it for lessons today and will arrange for make-up session lol. super happy to see that, cos that means i didnt miss any lesson today hehh :D
anw thanks minhua ruihong and john for the cake and mini celebration today :) after that met ~~lyekiat bestfriend~~ datou at outram and went down outlet tgt to sing while waiting to collect our pay. actually told jiahong initially that i will reach at two, but in the end i arrived an hour later so sorry. then nikki/zihui came down also :D today's my last chance to slack b4 i really start to chiong my asms and mug for exams sia lol.
oh yah anw was quite touched that vayl still rmb to wish me on the day itself even though shes in china, and she blurblur forgot to tell me who she is in the sms haha. and surprisingly hansheng rmb also and called to wish me today although its belated. and thanks to guolong and jiayao in advance :)

19th :D

2009-11-04T02:43:00.001+08:00

thanks everyone for ur wishes, be it through sms msn or fb :) this reminds me that im getting older haha. last teenage year already. so happy tmr is my free day so dont need to go to school heh. anw why samsung phone got so little sms memory storage? there are only around 200 sms and my phone keeps blinking 'memory storage full. delete some messages.' =.= i miss nokia phones, that can store thousands of messages. and my one-month-old-phone almost died just now, suddenly keep lagging and dno why cant open some unread messages..
anw going down ms to collect pay on thursday :) think jiayao lyekiat guolong jiahong and keith coming down also haha. who else wants to come down tell me! :D
and happy one month! <3

changes

2009-11-02T23:54:00.001+08:00

idiot lyekiat pangseh again today lol. was supposed to go down simei ite and studio wu today to send impresario posters over, but in the end decided to go down on wednesday instead cos lyekiat best friend last min tell me he got exams so never go school =.= sian have to do this on my birthday sia. anw hc102 quiz tmr again, hope i manage to wake up tmr..
btw, am quite disturbed by how fast pple change. its kinda scary, i must say. but changes are inevitable arent they? since change is the only constant in life..

lalala~

2009-10-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

im amazed by my own crapping skills lol. anw finally finished my big project, okay not exactly yet but im only left with minor touchups here and there. think i can complete everything in a day haha :) and i realised i need to shop for some stuffs real soon..

minho fever

2009-10-24T01:05:00.003+08:00

met amelia and yokesan at smu this morning to make zihui's super belated present. okay i admit i didnt contribute much cos i was late for an hour haha. yes im very sorry, i just died on my bed and couldnt wake up lol. went to meet zihui at plaza sing after that and had lunch @ ajisen. heard leeminho's coming ps so thought of going etude house to have a look. the crowd was omg, damn scary. whole basement one was flooded. super stuffy and squeezy, cant even move around sia. in the end the event was cancelled due to security reasons, they scared the glass break cos too many pple were pressing against it =.= saw xueling when we were leaving. she was super disappointed cos she came all the way there just to see him but didnt manage to do so lol. after that went popular to buy some stuffs and went back home to do work.
anw, will be mia from kbox till after exams haha. exams end on 30th nov :D hope zihui laopo can transfer over to ms and work tgt with me during hols heh.
btw keith's new girlfriend is damn hot! check it out! :D
p.s. im seeing stars now. yes, literally lol.

BFF

2009-10-20T21:01:00.002+08:00

okay finally finished my sucky phonetics asm so am here to update :) met zihui laopo on friday after lessons, went down ms to sing and walk walk around. saw sale at diva on our way to outlet and made a detour lol, bought accessories heh. bangles, earstuds and ring :D

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i wan go shop again! :)
anw today's quiz was okay i think, and was super happy after handed in my asm! one struck off my list, another due on friday. lucky its pairwork, so i wont die alone LOL. meeting lyekiat liangming and zihui laopo to play vball tmr~ so long never play already heh :)

相信

2009-10-19T16:48:00.000+08:00

今天日记空白没有关系
不必每件事情都在意
不想工作不想困扰自己不必刻意想你
该是我的总会来就算挑战我不走开

一点点你的微笑已经让我觉得温暖
我还不懂坚持正好让我学会去爱
我曾经看见困难变得胆小不够勇敢
但还是要相信相信感觉相信简单

random quote

2009-10-18T01:48:00.001+08:00

"Just because somebody flirts with you, doesn't mean they like you. Just because somebody likes you, doesn't mean they love you. Just because somebody loves you, doesn't mean they won't hurt you. Because people lie, boyfriends cheat, things change."
chanced upon this on a friend's blog. how true lol. anw will update on friday's day out with zihui tmr (hopefully!) okay :D too many things too little time haha. and meet up soon again laopos! <3

new phone :D

2009-10-10T04:24:00.001+08:00

finally recontracted with minhua in school after procrastinating for so long, singned up for youth plan and got myself a violet phone heh. violet phone and pink hp pouch, sounds quite bimbotic huhh lol. minhua referred me and i got 50bucks off so in the end i only paid v lil, dirt cheap sia. dun need to use my daddy's lkk spare phone anymore, happy!
have been going down outlet quite alot recently. chionged home after school and then to outlet today, last min ask me work cos liyin mc. supposed to start at 4pm, punch in 1559 lol. anw ms is like so money-eating now sia, everything also talk about money. now forgot punch in/out pay 5bucks immediate cash adding on to the 10bucks that we usually have to pay, and cancel one order pay 2bucks wth. and thats not all, still got alot others sia =.=
and schoolwork is piling up on my to-do list. HC102 asm 20th oct, HW101C asm 23rd oct, HE191 quiz 29th oct, HC201 asm week 13, HC101 asm coming up soon too. and just came to know that we have to hand in a 600-800 words essay on our next HC101 tutorial, that means three days to read finish this 26pages thick stack of novel and chiong out the essay since we were only notified ytd =.= damn last min. feeling the stress now..
p.s. sorry for giving attitude just now, was pretty tired and moody.

recess week :D

2009-09-30T03:36:00.000+08:00

recess week finally! supposed to work four days this week, but still not sure if working on sunday yet cos maybe meeting zihui laopo after her midterms. the cosy four again :D so many frens with birthdays falling on september sia, gna be so broke this month lol. and i still owe zihui and paul presents!
anw fell sick again, must be jason or lyekiat spread their virus to me one sia. and i realised i keep falling sick this year =.= time to change my sleeping habit i suppose haha.
btw i just realised today then theres suju's songs at kbox haha. got sorry sorry and u, sorry sorry mv de quality not good but better than nothing. donghae damn cute! but i still prefer my changmin :D
and i miss zihui laopo.. got soo many things to tell u, and update me soon also arh u complicated girl! lol.

plain writing

2009-09-18T16:45:00.002+08:00

just screwed up my phonetics retest. i suddenly remember some of the correct answers after i've handed in my paper, how wonderful can that be =.= and this means i have to score v well for my eoys in order to pull back my grade. siann.

i guess the only thing i can be happy about is that there is a long weekend ahead :) i really need this three days break mann. anyway i've finally completed my craft of writing asm and handed it in today. wrote on betrayal, how apt lol. then we had plain writing sessions during tutorial and were asked to write a paragraph of around eighty words long about our favourite person or activity, using only words with one syllable. pretty tough. and i thought minhua's is pretty cool. she wanted me to post it here haha. there it goes:

I love to jog in the cool dark night when I can have a piece of mind.

I keep track of my pace and keep track of time as thoughts run through my mind.

I breathe in and out in this cool dark night, let go of stress and chill my mind.

It is great to jog late at night when the moon is out and the stars shine bright.

You may want to join me if you think I am right.

cool hor? i think its pretty good for first attempt, sounds poetic haha. second craft of writing asm is coming up, and it will be much longer than our first piece of work i think. i dun like writing essays in english, cos i write better in chinese haha. yes i express myself better in chinese. call me a cheena pok, whatever~ LOL. okay end it off with a photo, one taken at canteen 2 before kenghoe left. cya till then`

random gossip

2009-09-14T23:03:00.001+08:00

talked to zihui laopo on the phone just now and she realised how cek ark she is LOL. u are worse than me okay haha. TSK. GO EAT VEGETARIAN FOR 365 DAYS ARH! XD
anw talked to a few people about it and i think i know what i should do now. yes i will. thanks for being there :) and zihui, all the best to u arh, dun so cek ark again hor lol.
alrights just a short post, gotta chiong tutorial and study for phonetics quiz tmr. meeting zihui laopo after lessons tmr go sing shop watch movie and HTHT yay~
last but not least, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWIN! MISS YOU ONG JIEXIN! <3

TGIF!

2009-09-12T00:29:00.003+08:00

finally the long awaited weekends are coming! have been sleeping at around four for the past few days and am almost dying already. missed today's 830am tutorial again, and was wondering why minhua didnt call me to ask me where i was. then i realise she ponned the tutorial also =.= didnt go for hc201 lecture again so left school at two plus, and that means the both of us only went for half the lessons we're supposed to attend today haha. ruihong (minhua's spastic p! lol) ponned three hours of lessons too and the three of us went jp tgt. from this we can conclude that minhua is a bad influence! LOL.
accompanied minhua to singtel to sign up for the youth plan. i want that plan too but my contract ends 9th dec :( think i may jolly well switch to m1 after that cos m1 has free outgoing to three m1 numbers, and i get 100bucks off when i switch from another subscriber to m1. oh yah, and i just realised today that i actually have unlimited sms to singtel numbers when i thought i didnt haha.

walked around after that to look for clothes and each of us bought a dress and a bottom. bought a top each while waiting for yokesan and jamie for lunch yesterday too, happy happy. yes im easily contented :) and i think i should start to stock up dresses cos i realise i have pathetic no of dresses in my wardrobe, like only five or so =.= and i have an urge to stock up heels too, although i cant really walk properly in them haha. btw i like the shorts alot cos its not the normal kind of denim, but those smooth surface one :D pictures below..

1. top from mezzo wear

the inner piece (can wear that alone :D)

with the outer piece (okay, looks abit messy here..)

2. shorts from new future jeans

front view

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3. dress from fashion lab

oh yah and im in cac impresario le, in amelia's sub comm :) think theres a sub comm meeting next sat, and first canvassing project is on 16th and 17th oct. next next sat got paul's birthday party also, why so many pple's birthday fall on september! lol. and theres 语音test next tues, and i actually think they all sound quite the same to me lor haha =.= lastly, craft of writing asm due next friday. heng we only need to write a para and not a full essay, 200plus words only! :D

one thing done

2009-09-08T18:22:00.010+08:00

hoho. finally handed in my HC101 analysis today :) spent hell long to write that sia, must be too long never write chinese essays le haha. anw i thought my handwriting was pretty nice, considering the fact that i havent been writing chunks of chinese words in the past ten months?

nice right? nice right? XD

anw didnt work last sat but went back ms to sing with zihui amelia yokesan to celebrate amy's birthday :) hope u like the presents we bought for u wor~ and i finally rmbed to bring ys's bear haha. had a hard time wrapping the bear okay cos the bear just doesnt want to sit still =.= and the bear became v smelly cos the wrapping paper got this weird smell lol. lucky guan never see me or else sure kna diao. heard from longfei that he will be transfering to c8 too after he comes back from china in october, why is everyone transferring to c8?! :(

anw i just realised that i only have the 'before' picture of the bear cos i forgot to take a photo of it after ive finished wrapping it.

nice to hug! :D

btw liyin wanted to cook fried rice for me on sunday de but in the end never cos chocolate wanted to cook zha jiang mian for us, say its her last time cooking for us le. so gan dong sia haha. shall find some day go down c8 find her, and find that old man thompson too XD liyin, im still waiting for ur fried rice this sunday hor~ haha :D

on a side note, saw this random poster at some corner in my school a few days ago. liyin, see the hwee hwee! lol.

alrights off to do my econs tutorial le~

after school

2009-09-04T14:25:00.002+08:00

went ms after lessons ended yesterday. was supposed to meet liyin at 3pm but reached super early at 2pm so went outlet to rot, i was even earlier than kah poh whos supposed to start work at 2pm okay haha. went to have lunch at bao today again then walked to suntec to wait for jacky to end work. and guess what, we saw jason at suntec also! keep seeing him yesterday, so scary lol. saw jamie there also, its been super long since i talked to her le :) anw lye kiat ps us again cos he has to go for vball training, for the second time already okay~ hmph.
so went to watch the proposal at 650pm then went home after that, actually wanted to stay for dinner de but mum warned me to reach home early cos its shi wu yesterday v xiong and im scared also. she kept scaring me remind me not to turn behind if i hear footsteps or hear pple calling my name =.= and that jacky did the same thing also when i was still walking home wth, hai wo increase my walking speed and walk damn fast back lor lol thanks huhh..
btw sunday is chocolate's and dino's last day at ms cos they will be transferring to c8 also. i think i will definitely miss them, esp chocolate.. though she will lose her temper and shout at me sometimes when shes in a bad mood, but still.. i think shes been quite nice to me and shes taught me alot. hope she will be fine over there :)
anw jimmy and phang kept calling me at two am plus yesterday (when im about to sleep!) say need my help, i thought its some urgent thing but in the end turned out that they thought im like liyin still working full time and wanted to borrow my laptop to chiong their work tmr lol =.=
alrights back to study, HC101 500 words analysis due next tues and HW101C essay assignment due in two weeks!

tired

2009-09-01T23:47:00.003+08:00

yay finally free day tmr, wed is my fav day of the week haha :D at first planned to go down ms to sing with lyekiat best friend tmr de but in the end decided not to, since i have lotsa work to do and i'll be seeing him on thurs also. have to complete my econs tutorial and read up my huge pile of lecture notes, since i dont understand a single thing the HC201 lecturer is talking about =.= meeting liyin after school on thurs for lunch then gna watch the proposal :) lyekiat best friend and jacky should be joining us after their school and work respectively too, thats if they dont pangseh like what someone did the other day huhh lol. so looking forward to thurs, super long never go out with liyin already..
anw have been sleeping v little for the past few days, like around three hours every day. only slept for one plus hour last sat cos went to send vayl off at airport, and im quite surprised i still can tahan whole day of work although after half a day my headache starts to get worse and i cant really like walk in a straight line lol. so many pple leaving singapore to study, first it was anting then now fengba and vayl, and next year jiexin and jamie. feel quite sad that they are leaving one by one, but still wish them all the best and hope they can adapt to the new environment pretty well :)
oh yah so happy best friend jiayao is finally coming back to work! :D super alot of pple are looking forward to him coming back cos nobody wants to be runner. lyekiat best friend dont black face already hor! lol. but so sad jacky kna tranfer back suntec le, cannot wake up late le cos nobody send me to work haha. anw think from this week onwards i will only work at most one day bah so i will have more time to do my work, have to start sleeping early too if not next morning sure super shag and most prob cannot wake up haha. pretty hard to achieve i guess, but still have to try :)